When you’re not here, I pee with the door open and listen to music really loud
The Inspiration Station
Hello. Here I will be mainly posting things I wouldn't post anywhere else. Because let's face it... no one but me is actually reading this.
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Everyone said I should start writing again. It’s been a while. The last time I had a diary was back in 2012 and I stopped writing in it about half way through the year when I deemed my life to not be that exciting. Year before that I think I spilled out a few entries with good intentions only to find at least 3 notebooks with dozens and dozens of empty pages.
It’s my birthday in two days. I tend to get a bit nostalgic this time every year. Looking back on all the things I feel like I should have done by now.
Yesterday I was talking to my friend about how when we were growing up, there were so many tv shows about your teens, college and university that you sort of knew what to expect. But your 20’s? If there were any shows, why would we have watched them (ugh, being 25 is so old!)?
Since stumbling out of university, I’ve no clue. If I had the cash I’d dive right back into education in a heartbeat. The warm, fuzzy feeling of learning, surrounded by like minded people sounds so much more appealing that working in an office, minimizing Facebook, twitter and buzzfeed when the boss walks past. No wonder our generation refuses to grow up. What’s out there is scary. It’s like diving into a black pit. Who knows what’s at the bottom?
Keep trying and you will succeed
I just don’t wait to be afraid anymore
When you look back, it seems like it was obvious it would happen. The new prescription. The storm. The random stomach cramps.
She lay in a coma. He was dead, two days before from a rogue tree branch, crushing the Mini Cooper S they’d ironically called Max. Then there was the still-born baby neither of them knew, or would ever know anything about.
A real Romeo and Juliet story. He’d driven over to her house, thinking the worst after a cryptic message from her surgical intern ex-boyfriend, garbling something about the side effects of Baclofen. He never made it. She, devastated by the news, promptly emptied the pill packets down her throat, in a swirl of vodka and tears. Plummeting into a coma, the doctors’ realised she was 7 months pregnant and removed the hopeless child from his mother’s womb.
What is there for her to wake up for?


